Wow, 2020, what a shit show of a year. I recently read somewhere that no one is actually “okay” and if they say they are, they’re lying which really resonated with me. As hard as last year was, it really taught me a lot. 2020 taught me to find joy in the little things and be extra grateful for what I have (knowing that it is and always will be enough). I am extra appreciative of my health (along with my family and friends), parks, my Nespresso machine, and the big TV Andrew bought before we got locked down.
I feel like winter really doesn’t help things either. Seasonal depression is a real thing guys! When I lived in California and was sad, I would always find myself at the beach watching the waves crash. Now I don’t have that luxury here in Colorado so it’s been quite the adjustment to figure out how to find my peace. During quarantine, Andrew and I would go on weekly hikes and I really loved it. I think that was when I felt most at peace and happy. There is nothing quite like the air in the mountains. I’m already counting down the days until spring is here!
For me, personally, the hardest thing I’ve had to accept this year was that I’ve grown out of my job. It’s been a long time coming, but it has been really hard for me to accept. Retail was never meant to be a forever thing for me anyway, but it’s still is a hard pill to swallow to know that you’ve outgrown something so personal like a job. I’m lucky to be in a position where I can take a step back and figure out what I want to do next. I can honestly say that I have no idea what this next chapter will bring for me, but I am ready for it!
I hope 2021 is much kinder to us all. I’m thinking about you all and please know that you are not alone. I hope you are finding positivity where you can and my inbox/DMs are always open if you need a friend.
Sending you all love and light. xx